You are not here yet, but I love you more than anything. I would love a daughter. Once you are here you’ll be my pride and joy. I will buy so many adorable clothes for you. Your room will be owl themed. When I hold you for the the first time I might cry. You will be my world. I will teach you so much about life. I wanna have a strong relationship with you your whole life. I will tell you that you’re not perfect and you will make mistakes. But don’t beat yourself up about it, its life. Guys will break your heart, you’ll be upset and feel like your whole world is tumbling down. There’s pleanty of better guys out there. You will meet your husband someday. He will love you more than he loves himself and do just about anything for you. He’ll make you the happiest person you’ve ever been. You’ll smile so much when you’re around him and he’ll take your breath away. Baby girl you know you can talk to me about anything. I will never judge you. I will always love you no matter what. I will give you alot advice to help you threw. I will teach you how to be a competitive dancer just like your mom used to be. You will accomplish so much in life. You will beautiful and don’t ever let anyone ever tell you, you can’t do anything. I love you.
In the book House on Mango Street I feel they’re talking a lot about how people think and how they feel about the neighborhood and the neighbors. I chose “they think we’re dangerous”.(pg28)
“They think we’re dangerous”. The town has a bad reputation the only thing you hear about is the bad things that happen, never the good. When they come here they make sure all the the windows are rolled up and locked along with the doors. They think we will attack them with shiny knifes. thoes who dont know any better come into our neighborhood scared.(pg28) I don’t remember the first time i saw him look at me -Sire. But i knew he was looking. Everytime. All the time I walked past his house. Him and his friends sitting on their bikes infront of the house, pittching pennies. They didn’t scare me. They did but i woun’t let them know. I didn’t walk on the other side of the street. I walked past. I knew he was looking. I had to prove to me I wasn’t scared of nobodies eyes, not even his. I had to look back hard, just once, like he was glass. And I did. I did once. But I looked to long when he road his bike past me. I looked because I wanted to be brave.(pg72) Joe the baby grabber. Keep away from him, he is full of danger. Benny and Blanca own the corner store. They’re ok except dont lean on the candy counter. Two girls raggery as rats live across the street, and don’t wanna know them. (pg12+13) Darius, who doesn’t like school, who is sometimes stupid mostly a fool, said something wise today, though most days he says nothing. Darius who chases girls with firecrackers or a stick that touched a rat and think hes tough today pointed up because the world was full of clouds. The kind like pillows(pg33)
People usually only listen to what they hear, they never actually go or do anything they heard about, to form their own opinion. “They think we’re dangerous”. They think- they don’t know.
My camp is my sacred place. its almost an hour away away from here. It’s two miles away from the Sacandaga Lake. Its a cabin with a country theme that is so different from here. There is no city at all, just trees, flowers, and wild life. The air is always fresh and the only war that is going on is animals that try to make it through each day.
How I feel when I am at my camp is like nothing else matters. All the problems that are here in my hometown are vanished when im there. The classes in school are like a race to finish to the finish line. Who can get the best gardes, who can get into the best college and lastly making sure you pass all required courses/tests to make it out of this jungle. Jobs to make money for it to just be gone, and like it never existed.
At camp we have a couple four wheelers, I usually take one and go even futher away from the lake up the mountain to this look off spot that has a barn under me and beautiful look off of the lake, mountains, and trees that move ever so ever so softly in the wind. I think about everything and anything in this spot. I write about what’s on my mind because I dont’t share my feelings often. This spot is so loud, but so quiet. The sounds of bugs,animals and trees are the most relaxing sounds to me, and allows my mind to travel. I think about everything here, even my future.
This is my sacred place.